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I miss you terribly,

And I pity everybody else in the world

Because they couldn’t know what it’s like

To be loved by you.

If I were to become one of them,

Those who don’t know…

I have this recurring dream,

It wakes me up in a cold sweat

With knots in my stomach.

I message you,

You want nothing to do with me–

That’s all there is to it.

When I look in the mirror,

Somehow I try to see myself

Through your eyes.

“She’d love my hair now,

And I’m in much better shape.

I wonder what she’d say?”

It’s ironic– after 21 years

I think I finally love myself,

But after having you love me,

Self-love just isn’t enough anymore.